My Mind

My mind drifts often,
Like the wind does in a raging El Nino,
It takes short walks to get energized,
When it returns
It reminds me of the sweet little things in life

It does not allow me to think about
Times of strife and suffering and of when
My soul was not a soul,
But lets me marvel at the now

My mind escapes me occasionally;

It takes trips to exotic places,                     

Where everyone is so relaxed,
They forget they exist,
What a feeling that can be sometimes

My mind fills with imagination,
It questions the questionable,
Thinks and re-thinks
Sets itself apart

                                                    

My mind builds mountains on the desert,
Makes the moon smile sometimes,
And grows cute lilies on the side
Of a solitary road to keep it company

My mind, Yes it is unique
Inventive, and sometimes absent
From reality and the truth

My Escapade-Traveling

I consider myself the adventurous type; at least someone agrees with me on that.  Astrology :-)
Two years ago I was head over heels over traveling outside Kenya, you know, wanting to experience another culture and getting a feel of how things are done in other countries. To get to know what other people like and just have fun, because to me the greatest reward and luxury of travel is to be able to experience everyday things as if it were the first time and to be in a position in which almost nothing is so familiar its taken for granted.

History shows that travelling develops skills you didn’t know you had – The satisfaction you get when reaching the top of the mountain(which I did haha) or crossing a gorge, or helping a villager clean up after a storm, or simply getting what you wanted at a restaurant in the streets of Arusha town..These things all allow access to skill sets you didn’t know you had; well alongside other interesting stuff. The need for adventure is just hardwired and travel lets you tap into it.

So this time round around December 2013 my legs took me, alongside close friends to Arusha Tanzania. A city that is surrounded by beautiful Hills and Mountains, friendly people and beautiful scenery. A city that has grown trees inside Its town and its as clean you can  imagine. Roads are made; hotels and buildings as modern and a realm of breathtaking landscapes from left right and centre.With a feel of all this it was clear that it was going to be a time to unwind and relax after a long years work.

People kept on looking and smiling at us,some even went ahead to say their hi’s(za kwako?,za tangu jana?,za juzi? Vipi?)and I’m there,nimeduwaa..the only greeting  I’m familiar with is sasa? Haha I can remember the expression on the kids faces when I said this.So hilarious.With us getting the looks,I guess its what comes with being Kenyan.We are so conspicuous and hold some eminence that can’t be compared to any other..in short we just stand out.Our dressing,our body language..how we speak and all..there’s just something!And I’m proud of that.We ended up making friends even in the market places because we really enjoyed their food.
Oh their food,almost compared to Swahili dishes.. having had a Swahili background I ended up appreciating every bit of it..their mshikaki’s were out of this world..ate this from a restaurant called “Babylon”..okey it was both a club and a restaurant,the name is just weird..but screw that.The food was breathtaking.And did I forget how beautiful the ladies are?the yellow yellow dadas?as we call them?my brother ended up pursuing one..i’m yet to ask him how that went :-)

And then theres the money,Tanzanian Shillings are comedy at its best.Lol for a moment I thought I was bawling hard! You hear 30,000TZS and you’re like man! That S3? Kumbe its not even two thousand bob,though we enjoyed the affordable foodstuffs,wine and African wear that we ended up getting for our families back home.We made sure we made good use of it up there..It was a fun experience..Oh and i climbed a mountain,something i never thought i'd ever do..the heat and the blood rush.Unforgettable.

Just recently I landed a job at a certain branding company and jumped right on to start working together with them on the branding identity of a Festival called Zinduka. A Festival that happens annually in the Different East African Countries.The festival brings together the giants of the Arts,Culture,Technology and conversations.Its  gates open next week and guess where..in Arushaaa! Couldn’t be more excited to go back there and have me some fun and learn at the same time.For my part, I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel’s sake. The great affair is to move,and this is going to be worth the ride.

Stick here for an update of the event when I get back.Cant wait to share with ya’ll.

Waiguru the whistle blower!

Waiguru Waiguru Waiguru..how many times did I call you? lol

Today’s Daily Nations front page..
"I’m here to stay!" Waiguru’s words hehe the CS Devolution.Resign?not me. Honestly i’m not a huge fan of politics but this? This had me talking. This had Kenyans talking.C.S Waiguru’s excessive use of money she cant account for.Totally hilarious!

The Devolution ministry,Waiguru's space,registered huge sums of money,say expenses that seemed very questionable as presented to Chairman Nicholas Gumbo.Starting with Sh450,000 for 18 custom-made condom dispensers, Sh1.7 million spent for a screen in her office and Sh12 million for an office partition.A copier at Sh1.5 million, while Sh1.9million was spent for free downloadable Adobe software and Sh250,000 for ten flashdisks. Kaspersky security kit at almost One  Million(Sh973,780)..seriously?(you can get this at a thousand bob?or download it via the internet?)Oh plus a Piano costing Sh235,900 lol..a piano at Waigurus office! Haha I wish I could relate..my office space,a small corner with a small desk.My computer,a mouse and a lamp.Being an artist I’d be tempted to bring my guitar to the office and put it on that very corner but good heavens my boss wouldn’t allow(I should probably ask him haha).But contrary to expectation is Waiguru's urge to spend cash anyhowly..a whole Waiguru with a piano worth KES 200000,plus!In her office!yet she’s not even  an artist!Hahaha how unrealistic can this get.

Waiguru's ministry is said to have lost Sh45 billion which it collected from the Eurobond floated by the government.The money is said to have been used in projects that can not be accounted for within the ministry.Talk of widespread corruption!Waiguru says she will not take responsibility of all those accusations since she was not in the accounting department!Seriously?how’s that possible..you head a MINISTRY,a whole MINISTRY and you don’t have a last say on what enters your office?let alone approving any amount that is to be used for anything that has to do with your office?bizzare!!

Kenyans were on a rampage yesterday and are still are.With tweets,facebook messages and memes from left right and centre going all over social media attacking this socialite,sorry CS...haha one particular one,"waiguru was a whistle blower,wait tll you hear how much the whislte is lol!! And some more…

What I’d like to say though is this..Kenya is bigger than any individual. Hon Saitoti,God rest his soul said this before he passed on..there comes a time when the nation is more important than an individual.If at all we want to beat the odds and become a nation that other nations sought after because of accountability and transparency,then its about time we stood tall and thought about some of the things we do.Things that droop us and tear us apart as a nation.

Kenya is in a crisis..and until we understand that corruption is a national disaster then we are doing ourselves zero favour!Corruption is the enemy of development and of good governance.It must be got rid of.Both the government and the people must come together to achieve this national objective!Simple..

MY KINDA GUY

Lazy Monday it is.

Today I feel like talking about relationships haha,I don’t really know what prompted the topic though but hey! What do I have to loose..

Someone come prove me wrong, relationships are fun, but can be bad ass too. 

Down the road i've dated a variety of guys. Those who know me, will know that the number of actual men doesn't even stand to a quarter. I'm not sure why or why not. For some reason, I've just never been attracted to loads and loads of men. Call it picky, call it selective,thats just me.Some of my friends find some of these guys  attractive, and that one and the other one, any time, all the time. I would have to say that sometimes i've envied that,psst hehe. I could seriously go years without finding that one guy whose wholly appealing - physically, spiritually, mentally, personality, manners ..you know,just the whole package.

We’ve all had our fair share when it comes to dating, what i remember though is this one time dating this guy(worst mistake ever),chauvinistic, full of himself,seemed ambitious(well about certain things if you know what I mean).He was a mouthful(always had something to say lol).senseless self-praising, zero humour,zero everything. Someone hang me already? What am I doing heeere!!! Talk about suffocation!..two months was all I remember. My sister  was always on my case whenever she saw us together haha man!He was some work.

Then came this guy from Uganda,don’t get it twisted my Ugandan counterparts, I love you all.This guy was sweet and romantic,very thoughtful..oh and he had the sweetest voice ever(leave bro ocholla’s lol).he'd come to my workplace and make sure he at least sang a song or two to just calm my nerves,you know..what a 'normal' boyfriend should do(guys i hope you're taking notes lol)..but that was just about it.I know what I DON'T LIKE - selfishness, rudeness, men that are inconsiderate,I honestly cant stand ungentlemanly behaviours.How in the world would you enter a Matatu the first and leave me behind?Mind you we are walking together?and how in the world would you not open the door for me when we’d be entering the same room?i mean some men are just a handful.I don’t even remember picking his calls the weeks after.Man what a waste!

Talk about frogs..hihi I’ve kissed them.Yuhk..wouldnt want to go back.Good hygiene,good manners,good character all rolled into one will make you go a loong way!

But lets see,why would i want to settle for less?I know the ladies are going like yeah?Well yes!Why would you?You're a powerhouse,a pillar,you hold the world,you're that confident woman that every other woman envies!You're worth is in your brain(my favorite lady quote this year "oh screw beautiful,i'm brilliant,you want to appease me?compliment my brain"ha! awesome right?)Keep holding it down!

Back to my kinda guy,

Mhmm,i wouldnt say i have a particular type per say but there are certain things that seem to be more prevalent than not in the men I've loved. Tall (well mostly), intelligent, uber confident, great smiles, charming, funny - please,if you cant make me laugh just forget you even met me! and they've been high on the handsome scale:-) Haha well some of you might me going like,this chick is not realistic..It's not that I look for that specifically, it's just that these traits seem to be common to 'our' ideal men,right ladies?haha enough with this killer wants!

I know I'm all over the place with this post lol.I guess I just know that I like what I like when I see it.Can't predict it,can't explain it. My kinda guy is thoughtful and genuine,adventurous and honest,chivalrous and passionate and silly and intellectual,artistic and creative,he's intense but laid-back, he's tough but gentle, he's serious and funny, he can dress up and he can dress down(not down like down down).Pushes me to the limit but reminds me of how much i mean to him,Ambitious and excited about the future and most of all Loves and Fears the Lord(A man that should be emulated)You can say the older i get, the more I know what I like...And who knows, maybe I've found him already :-)

Haha thanks for the read. XO

Life's Lemons

I just wanted to make this point clear.
Life is a big field,a heartless yet very serene place to explore who you truly are.Where you play and write your own story,not anyone else's.In the long run you loose opportunities,feelings you can never get back and time you wish you had stored in a better part of your own private library..but oh well, thats simply part of what it means to be alive.To truly understand the workings of our own hearts we have to keep on making new reference cards.Dust one or two things off every once in a while,let in fresh air,change in the water in the flower vases and all that refreshing 'yourself' kinda drama.In other words,you'll live forever in your own private library,building and re-building your own walls..which is good,because thats what life's about.Its what you make it.

Today a superior asked,"Cathy what would you do when you found yourself in a desert/a new place where you knew no one and had no money" ..I'm like boss,where would i even start?i guess this is where the art of communication comes in?You have nothing,you know no one..whats your biggest asset,your tongue.Well its almost simple but then again its not,my first approach is what do i have to i have to offer in exchange for a simple resource like a penny.Definitely has to be my skills.Show me the closest i can get to a band and i'll play and sing in exchange for a place to sleep.Show me the nearest creative agency and i'll give you some me articles in exchange for a dollar.Simple right?Well..

For someone to truly believe in what you have or what you can do,you'll have to go though a series of Yes'es and No's but its a simple "can you do something?"Can you be able to make something out of what you previously did not have?or better yet what you have?some initiative?some responsibility?
I believe life gives and shows us opportunities and if we are receptive enough we take them.We are all,most of the time faced with  opportunities disguised as impossible situations.But who are you to give in to that negative vibe?Always strive to listen to that still small voice and strive to create your own story.One where only you and yourself create your own inspiration and positivity.

Tonight i am here with my pen,i call her my golden pen.She makes my world go round with her good vibe.
My solace and my serenity.My not so judgmental partner in crime.
My calm and quiet,My lovely wisdom and insight in times when i cant see.
My happiness and my restraint,My joy and my companion.
You make me see things in a different perspective..you help me share what i have with the world.

From a Creative's Perspective.

I will fight for what i know is mine. This is what has been buzzing in my head all day.
I now truly understand what it means to chase what you truly are passionate about. Butt flat,eyes weary,fingers dwingling,mind on a constant roar and the heart in constant motion.When you wake up and are in constant  battle,when you look in the mirror and fight with who you were yesterday,when progress and success are your lifetime Mantra.

Yesterday i was sharing with a friend and telling them how God gives you exactly what you ask him for,and they say "even Better"..which in my case is so true and many of us out there. Life throws lemons at you and you make lemonade,and just like the sun shines you strive to challenge yourself daily before it goes down.
When pressure becomes part of you and delivering go hand in hand.

As a creative,and speaking for many creatives out there,we usually find it hard to just be normal,let alone settling for less.We always want to be on the know,exposing ourselves to new experiences, sensations and states of mind.Creativity to me is like a muscle,the more i see it,the stronger it gets and at this point in my life it feels soooo freakin' good to just be in my element!
I have "friends" who always ask why i'm always so complicated,why i'm always so weird and queer and blah blah blah...and you know what i tell them? I seek to be different! I am that difference.
Be you,and in the end you'll be happy.
For all those who think that Creativity is overrated,this is for you.

 Highly creative people:

1. Have the COURAGE to try new things and risk failure. Every big breakthrough starts as a  harebrained idea.This doesn’t mean you should constantly go off the deep end, just that you should balance your routine portfolio of solutions with an investment in the new and untried. Over time, the risk is usually worth the reward.
2. Use INTUITION as well as logic to make decisions and produce ideas. When Matt Drudge designed his Web site, he listened to his gut instead of the Internet gurus. He kept it simple, small, fast, and some would say ugly and primitive. But it works for him, making The Drudge Report one of the most recognizable and popular sites in the world.
3. Like to PLAY, since humor and fun are the ultimate creative act. Which is to say you just have to lighten up. We all have goals, and quotas, and deadlines, but it’s not life and death. When you enjoy yourself, your brain relaxes and is able to produce more and better ideas. One of those ideas may be just what you’re looking for.
4. Are EXPRESSIVE and willing to share what they feel and think, to be themselves. Blogging is the ideal arena for injecting their personality into their work. People are emotional creatures and respond better to people who appear real, honest, and open. Not only is it more interesting, it can also be more persuasive.
5. Can FIND ORDER in confusion and discover hidden meaning in information. Research and critical thinking are key tools for the creative person. Information is to the brain what food is to the stomach. So-called “writer’s block” or creative burnout almost always results from a lack of fresh information and having nothing meaningful to say.
6. Are MOTIVATED BY A TASK rather than by external rewards. You must like the challenge of writing, explaining, teaching, and persuading. Sure, you can make money along the way, but if you’re in it just for the money, you’re not going to be a fountain of new ideas.
7. Have a need to FIND SOLUTIONS to challenging problems. Even the most creative writers won’t have a solution for everything. If they claim to, they’ve stopped thinking. Highly creative people are those whose eyes light up at a question they can’t answer. That’s the opportunity to learn something new and produce remarkably creative content.
8. Will CHALLENGE ASSUMPTIONS and ask hard questions to discover what is real. Writing, blogging, or business rules aren’t really rules, only rules of thumb. If you want to wield true creative power, you will always take what others advise with a grain of salt. (That includes all of us gurus who love to don our pointy wizard hats and pontificate on the secrets of success.) If you don’t know something from personal knowledge or experience, you don’t know it at all.
9. Can MAKE CONNECTIONS between old ideas to produce new insights. Combine the little doodles you make on a white board with online video and you get CommonCraft, a new approach to explaining things to people in a way they can easily understand. Sometimes the best solutions are simply two old ideas jammed together.
10. Are willing to TEST new ideas and compete with others based on results. Isn’t that what they mean by the “market of ideas”? Isn’t that what business competition is about? If you’re afraid of being wrong or losing, your creativity will suffer.

 From me to you,if you're afraid of being wrong or loosing,your creativity will suffer!
 Challenge yourself! Be different! Chase!


Thanks for the read.XO

Africa awaits..

I’ve learn't a thing or two on some  major occasions in my life.That you don’t give in when you run out of options  and you don’t let go when there’s something  worth fighting  for.

"I’m waiting to see the morning".This is something you hear and want to sit down and ponder on.Quite literal is that’s  how my morning started,with this one statement that has really got me thinking.

Seeing the morning meaning waking up from your slumber and experiencing the morning sparkle or is it lying in hope for a brighter day?Is it pushing really hard for this tomorrow that can sometimes be so uncertain,or is fighting and pushing hard for what may seem impossible.

Reading about Burundi's history and actually seeing whats happening I’m left to wonder if hope is still our mantra.The Direct use of Force is such a poor solution to any problem as i’d say it,only justice ,fairness,consideration and cooperation can finally lead men to the dawn of eternal peace.It is respect for life  which sometimes makes battle necessary.A yearning for a better age.Giving up who you are to truly be who you are. With all the war within and without a country so small yet posing so much hope and potency for Africa.An Africa we are yet to see,one Africa that will stand tall for Justice and truth.One Africa that will unite and shame those colonists that thought we could never get something out of our monkey selves.That Africa that will rise up to conquer shame,pain and scorn,That Africa that will lead us into prosperity.

A certain quote says ``A woman on a mission asks for no permission’’..Africa you're on a mission..ask for no permission.A couple of days ago I recorded a song with my fellow brother from not a struggling nation but a country on a mission and he said he was here on business..writing lyrics that don’t entertain but make you want to think deep and act. Call him society conscious.Looking at the hope that drizzled down like honey from this young soul..the blood pumping in his veins for a better Africa..made me want to roar!I enjoyed a session with one who doesn’t talk much but wants to do more..actions that will make a change and not talks that will in turn droop us into the dungeon. 

The lyrics to the song..

‘’Break free for your light is here,

Hold on to the hope of a new day,

Today is History and tomorrow awaits,

I am you,you are me,we are each other.”

She might be standing at the crossroads of existence..somehow  gone wrong when she should have won the price.Her days turned into nights and her decisions to the keys to her destiny somehow outweigh her..but she's hopeful.Someone save her from herself.

 

 I’m here still brooding over this one statement."I hope to see the morning".This is Heavy and Profound.What do you want to see. .

If you’re a  rebel with a course.God is watching over you.

Thanks for the read :-)

Dear March

Dear March...

Its been a long time coming..

You’re the fire zodiac. So  Strong yet so sensitive.I’ve experienced your burns and your highly scorching strains.Your not so friendly nature and your eyes that burn like the summer sun.Your screeching scratches that have left a trail of inbuilt scars.Your endless roars and screams that have left this air frosty. You’ve been my blind fold..made me see darkness for what it is,made me feel the storm in thunders way, made me feel the electrocuting of a one bodied being bare skin.Made me feel hopeless in a world full of valor. Made me loose way in a tunnel full of dainty. I close my eyes and see shadows,I close my eyes and rage walks by,I close my eyes and non-bliss, I close my eyes and see void.You’ve eaten away my tranquil,like a deep wound you’ve cut through,left me a widow to my own soul.Today I lay you down and leave you like carcass, be eaten by the birds of the air,be devoured by the jungle slayers.

I’m glad I can witness you walk away.

Thank you for paving way to this ~Independent ~Adventurous ~Confident ~Courageous ~Versatile ~Lively  ~Positive and Passionate Aries persona!Though a bit impulsive in nature, all the goodies outweigh her!Like a sailor in the ocean,unaware of the waves,like a hawker in the streets,uncertain of the county council,like a soldier in the struggle,precarious of returning back home,I’m truly running with the night, psyched to pursue destiny.For when i look into the future,this is what I see…..ME!

“If you don’t have a vision then you’re empty inside,its like gazing in space,wasting time”.

MY Pro 'LOVE' fession....

My heart intertwines with yours and the commotion it causes alters  time.I see you and feel at ease,with the smile that’s says I care.With the giveaways of the moment,I give you my love.Take a picture,I want you to remember,as I profess my love.I don't care care if time stands still,my palate is all yours. Just with your touch,my heart eases,why would I let the illumination at my door fade away.I only envy the aloof tick between us when nature has to take you in its hands,because you my love,are nature itself.Like the wind blows,so your kisses glow…in the blooming of buds and the scents emittion, your breath blushes my lashes.I only boast of what supremeity did on my behalf.No solitary tears,just joyful memoirs. Your touch,and your kiss take me next to that haze where only you and I stand in time.My completion,my Reflection. Is there a cloud next to  9?because I don’t want this grin to fade.Every little glance my way,every little blush on this façade..pleats bits of you and me in an endless motion.Remedy too big,cant get this feeling off my brain.Like the sun shines  you’re the perfect brilliance there is.A star so bright,i open my eyes and i'm perplexed by your dainty.

You are Me

You are Me

You are Me

My world has changed,my world has become a doormat that says WELCOME!The portrait of you in my head from the first day I saw your face,takes me back in time and statues my emotions.I’m giving my all to you,because nothing else will do.Let it resonate from my heart that only you are my ample tonic.I've always been in control but when it comes to you,i'm helplessly in love.I submit to your demands,ready to be your supply. I’ll continue living the memories we’ve made and the stints we’ve shared.You’ve not only made me see me for me,but made me see brighter days.In the apprehensiveness of nature,so is your warm hug tender. There is a tide in the affairs of men,which taken at the flod,leads on to fortune.Omitted ,all the voyage of their life is bound in shallows and miseries.On such a full sea are we now afloat.Lets take on the current my love when it serves,because with you,this venture is not lost.

Let my Love Adorn You

Now I know i'm sober,its just so profound,Don’t the moon pull the tide?Don't the stars not cease to shine?Lets traverse the world with our imagination and paint a picture of us.A portrait that will never be erased from the sands of time.Wholesome reflections of you and I that will be alluded centuries to come,just like Romeo’s and Juliet’s,so is our fairytale heaven.Call me a dreamer,my love,i'm ready to go all Shakespearean on you.You’re like a  tide so strong carrying and pulling me to the sands of the ocean shore.A melodic bird in the still woods,bringing life to one of its own.Fresh scents from the flowery bliss,creating that sweet fragrance that stills this poundy heart at the thought of you.I n the conspicuity of day I see you and my palate melts.Let me Crucify these thoughts till the moments on a ricochet,that our alliance may be celebrated. I’m falling to forever.Don't pick me up any time soon.

I Love You

For Love is Patient....

Love is Kind.It does not Envy.It does not Boast.It is not Proud.It does not Dishonour.It is not Self seeking.It is not easily Angered.It keeps no Record of wrongs.Love does not delight in Evil but rejoices with the Truth.

It Always PROTECTS,Always TRUSTS,Always HOPES and Always PERSEVERES.

You’ve made my World a better place.It bursts with delight.