The Familiarity that Eludes..

Times...
My palate,as tranquil and as collected today was bombarded by my inner yet derisive monologues.It was on a rampage.They say even the strongest fall sometimes.Falling,i call it a healthy way of gaining insight and clarity.This rough spell in the glory of daylight made me a glass so frail,at the edge of the kitchen cabinet,a slight mistake and i'm gone.A million and one questions without definite answers.My Strong yet so brittle palate was in tatters,i look at my not so friendly  neighbor and i envy how peaceful and jubilant she is.Each touch and sound teared me apart.I was without a doubt in my own world,busy looking for solace."Perhaps i need some glue to stick together all this adrift pieces of me inside,"i thought.
 Fake smiles and more fake smiles were a rhythmic and endless cycle.Lips closed and eyes dancing like the wind in the night.Arms locked not to cause any movement and my feet traipsing just beneath my desk.
I was surely not myself.Somebody needed to beat some soberness into my being.

"RING,RING,RING".....this had to be the loudest rings i've heard in a long time.Finally someone interrupted my solitude.I had always known that when such points hit,someone ought to find themselves and this was the ultimate fleck."How are you?been trying to call you a dozen times but no answer..are you okey?!",hesitantly replying..''I'm okey thanks".That went on to be a breather,a time of reflection along the jagged edges of my untimely chronicles.

With freedom comes a let loose notion,a lifting of hands in the hardest of times and finding true treasure in the now moment.
Ever since i came to the point of self discovery i've always known what i wanted and needed in life.Its not like we merely live for the next day(to some this might be the case),all in the awe of tommorow finding us exactly where we were,but about purpose.
In the rigidity of times such as these,one is compelled and inspired  to look for deeper and more meaningful answers in life.Why are you here,What are you meant to do,What is your purpose,and what brings you joy.

As i sit here conversing with my uttermost,i choose to smile and look onto better days ahead.Of course motivation is not permanent.But then,neither is showering:but it is something you ought to do on a regular basis.
Its always what you'll make of it.



Thanks for the read xo

THE HOLIDAY THAT WAS..

The year starts on an oceanic feel.Down here at the coast where the breeze calms the nerves and a sense of a new and refreshed beginning is at bay.Diani Bay beach Resort is where it all went down.A touch and a feel of rich African sounds merged together to bring that one element of awe to our beautiful ears.MUTHURUKISHION is what they called it.A kikuyu word for a mixture of these unique beats in one(at least thats how i got it).The 2015 midnight countdown was epic as it found me as calm,ready to usher in expectant sense year,full of limitless possibilities.Resolutions made,Goals Set,and the heart to lead them on.The Percutted drums,melodic voices and the warmth that came with all the smiles filled the air.God with his sense of humour curved all this to be a soother.

 

The Scorch by the day and the breeze by the night went on to be a cycle i looked forward to every morning.Fun,laughter and endless talks captured our time here. With the warmth that came with sharing this wonderful time with the ones i hold dear brings sentiments that only i can tell.


As i look into what the year has to offer i keep my desires alive,being an acknowledger of the supreme being i'm confident they'll all come to pass.As i sit here listening to this song,Third Day-Your Love Oh Lord (http://youtu.be/QEF7IoQ3eUk) i have a reason to be grateful for being a carrier of His many blessings.The energy this year has brought fourth is overwhelming.Hopeful!Grateful!Optimistic! My new Mantra.

With all the cliche taglines that bombard our minds i stick to going for what i love most.In the words of a famous scholar,''Doubtfulness is our traitor in disguise,it makes us loose the gain we would have achieved by the fear to attempt'',.From me to you,put away every doubt and be an implementer.Satisfy that Hunger!!
2015 here we come!!