The Familiarity that Eludes..

Times...
My palate,as tranquil and as collected today was bombarded by my inner yet derisive monologues.It was on a rampage.They say even the strongest fall sometimes.Falling,i call it a healthy way of gaining insight and clarity.This rough spell in the glory of daylight made me a glass so frail,at the edge of the kitchen cabinet,a slight mistake and i'm gone.A million and one questions without definite answers.My Strong yet so brittle palate was in tatters,i look at my not so friendly  neighbor and i envy how peaceful and jubilant she is.Each touch and sound teared me apart.I was without a doubt in my own world,busy looking for solace."Perhaps i need some glue to stick together all this adrift pieces of me inside,"i thought.
 Fake smiles and more fake smiles were a rhythmic and endless cycle.Lips closed and eyes dancing like the wind in the night.Arms locked not to cause any movement and my feet traipsing just beneath my desk.
I was surely not myself.Somebody needed to beat some soberness into my being.

"RING,RING,RING".....this had to be the loudest rings i've heard in a long time.Finally someone interrupted my solitude.I had always known that when such points hit,someone ought to find themselves and this was the ultimate fleck."How are you?been trying to call you a dozen times but no answer..are you okey?!",hesitantly replying..''I'm okey thanks".That went on to be a breather,a time of reflection along the jagged edges of my untimely chronicles.

With freedom comes a let loose notion,a lifting of hands in the hardest of times and finding true treasure in the now moment.
Ever since i came to the point of self discovery i've always known what i wanted and needed in life.Its not like we merely live for the next day(to some this might be the case),all in the awe of tommorow finding us exactly where we were,but about purpose.
In the rigidity of times such as these,one is compelled and inspired  to look for deeper and more meaningful answers in life.Why are you here,What are you meant to do,What is your purpose,and what brings you joy.

As i sit here conversing with my uttermost,i choose to smile and look onto better days ahead.Of course motivation is not permanent.But then,neither is showering:but it is something you ought to do on a regular basis.
Its always what you'll make of it.



Thanks for the read xo